For those of you who didn’t see my post early last week: I have been accepted as a short-list candidate into the JET Program… In other words, I’m in!!!
Whew. Yea. It’s weird even just typing that… I STILL have this looming fear that something will go wrong and I won’t be on that plane in August. I know it’s just my anxiety but its uncontrollable! Like I’m afraid North Korea will actually start a war there, or I’ll get placed too close to where the tsunami hit and have to decline so that I don’t get harmed by nuclear radiation, or something on my health report will be weird, I’ll fail a class or I’ll miss a deadline or SOMETHING >.< But I’m trying my best to stay on top of it.
The reply form, a copy of my passport, and a copy of my FBI background application are due April 30th. I have everything needed except my passport which I applied for last Saturday. I had it expedited to come as quickly as possible so it should be here by next week. I also have to scan all that stuff and send electronic copies through email before I send off the actual package. Wah! Yea, see, I immediately focus on what I have to do next.
People keep asking me if I’m excited/nervous/whatever and honestly I don’t even know how to answer that question… Yes I’m both excited and nervous for obvious reasons but at the same time the answer is no because it hasn’t really hit me yet. I still can’t believe it. And I think that’s because my anxiety is still prohibiting me from getting my hopes all the way up. I just can’t believe it has all worked out so far, it’s too good to be true.
But anyway, I have to do all that stuff by the 30th and then the next phase is turning in my physicians reports, background check, proof of graduation, and IRS form. I’ve already started on the medical stuff and gotten an x-ray. I’m going back today to finish it up and get my results. Last time, I found out that I’ve gained 10 lbs and the vision in my right eye has gotten slightly worse -___- and I thought I’d stay young and healthy forever……. Ha!
Oh and I will find out my placement sometime next month!! I’m so excited for that! My requests were for Yokohama City, Saitama, and Osaka. If I got Yokohama… Ugh I’d die of happiness. I just keep hearing so many amazing things! But I don’t expect to get any of those actually. I’m expecting a tiny rural town that I’ve never heard of. I’ll be okay with that though c: The only thing I would be kind of bummed about is if I get put in Hokkaido… Don’t get me wrong, I would LOVE to visit there but living in snow country for a year might be too much for me. First of all, I grew up in Tennessee, meaning that I’m a wuss when it comes to cold weather. On top of that, I’m a thin girl which just makes it more difficult to adjust to extreme temperatures like that. And I just hate the cold… I never feel cute when it’s cold, I always just feel COLD, lol. But! We’ll just have to wait and see where I get placed. So yea, that’s my status on the JET Program. Still going through the process… But the hard part is over.
School is getting intense, I must admit. I thought it would have a steadily difficult pace throughout the semester but most of my classes are definitely getting harder. In Movie Making, I decided to direct a little skit that we’ll be filming during class time. Doesn’t sound too difficult right? WRONG. Well.. Actually, it isn’t difficult… It’s just difficult for me because at the exact same time that I need to put work in for that, everything falls apart on the award show production that I’ve been co-producing for months. My brain is just frazzled lately. There are way too many deadlines and due dates in my planner to even think straight! So I’m not really “on top of it” anymore… It’s more like I’m just trying to survive without failing. Japanese is getting way harder too :c I used to keep up fairly effortlessly, but the stuff we’re learning now (te-form functions) is so complicated and hard to remember. Maybe it’s because my mind is so preoccupied…
On a lighter note, I will be a college graduate in exactly one month. One more month of school… Another thing I can’t really process. I don’t even really have words?? I’m doing the same thing that I’ve done with JET—focusing on what needs to get done. Schoolwork is a large chunk of that but I’ve also had to design and order my class ring, take 2 exit exams, design and order my graduation invitations, get those from my dad, get addresses from my family to send those to, fill them out, and send them off…
Basically I’m running on 3 high-priority tracks right now: passing my 21 hours, being prepared for graduation, and remaining a part of the JET Program. So right now my biggest duties are to direct a short film, produce an award show, study my Japanese vocab and te-forms, fill out and send out my invitations, get my JET physicians forms filled out, pick up my passport, make copies of it, scan it along with the reply form and FBI app, and finally send both hard and electronic copies to the Nashville Consulate. It’s a lot but it feels really good to be in such control… To prove to myself that I can do anything, as long as its technically possible. That’s my list. It’s my hope to look back on this post in exactly a month and laugh at how frantic it sounds, since it will have all worked out in the end~